Where the spirit does not work with the hand there is no art.

Sunday, May 15, 2005

HEy!

wala lang, just wanted to say that you guys should check out my other blog too,coz although i post almost the same thing in both, i sometimes just update the other. wala lang. =p

http://www.xanga.com/hobbitydoo

Plus i changed the layout na!hehehee....=)

tricia grew up at 2:39 AM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Hey...wala lang Another tiring day of rehearsals gone by... but then i realized that we've only got 2 weeks until everything's all over. I think this is the fastest any summer has ever gone by. Today, i have exactly a month to go before i start college. College.....i am actually gonna be in college!!! ME! The little thing that i am! Scary how time flies... as our principal once told me and jas while we were in her office for i forget what, "the only thing that's constant in this world is change." Now i know that i was never really fond of our principal,but of all the things that came out of her mouth, this is the only one that actually stuck. And it wasn't coz she was giving us a sermon, it was just one of those random things that come out in a conversation. And well, i guess it is true. "everything in life is only for now", right? But thats what's so heartbreaking. I keep joining rep coz of all the unending memories and fun-filled experiences it brings, yet in the end i'm always disheartened by our needing to part ways... if only summers could last forever...(although that wouldn't be as good an idea now as it would've been for last year,hehe...) REp has always been my favorite part of the year, yet i think this'll be my last time joining the workshops. Change can also be good,and i wanna explore new things. But that's also probably why the fact that our play nearing scares me.....1) i'm really hoping it'll be good, and 2)Coz i'm terrified with what i'll be feeling when it's all over. Things might not have gone the exactly the way i hoped, but everything happens for a reason. And all these trials are here to make us stronger, which is what i've been praying for.Strength. Well i'm no superman (hmm...banana moment!!hehehe...), but i'd like to think it's made a big difference on me.So right now i'm gonna cast the smoldering heat aside that leaves me all sweltered and just try to enjoy the last few days i have left with my fellow reppers,and endure whatever comes. :o)

Anyways, was talking to peachy kanina (uber kabag moments!) and she told me about this really nice song....nice lyrics!here it is....

Swing Life Away
By: Rise Against

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I've been here so long, I think that its time to move
The winters so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Swing life away [x4]

wala lang.... hay,well thats all for now, it's 3:47 am na!!!!! gotta sleep na....Zzzzzzzz

tricia grew up at 4:14 AM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

After a month of not blogging....I'M BAAAACK!!!!!

Soooo sorry to keep everyone un-updated. things have just been so hectic,chaotic,insane and flabbergasting. REp's kept me awfully busy (physically and emotionally),and for the last 2 weeks,i had band practices with Rewind for gimlet's debut in the morning before rep rehearsals. But it was fun seeing some of the ob people again and just sharing kwentos about.....ahem,everyone and anyone (the band knows whom i mean!hehe) even though it meant being late for rep a kajillion times.(Sorry meynard!!!) Haaay. there are so many things to say i dont even know where to start!! lemme just say that this year's rep has been the most complicated. When i thought about it, since i've been in rep for 4 years na,it's sort of like my 2nd high school life. kaya pala parang high school for me was more than just 4 years. 3rd year was my favorite year in HS,coz although we had some problems din, it was just sooo much fun that it overtook the bad things. Same goes for my 3rd year in rep,last year's forbidden broadway. We encountered a few probs,but it was just sooooo much fun. I had my longest rep hangover there. When senior year came though, it seemed as if everywhere there were problems, from the start to the end. it was so drama-packed. Same goes for this year's Rep....

I used to always want to know things,even though it might not always be good. Kaya nga "stalker" ako eh, (hihihihi...)when i'm determined to find something out about someone or something, i'd really try to. But when i started hanging out with my twin, (peachy aka 'gabriella') she told me she rather not know these things anymore. I didnt understand why,coz i'd rather know the truth even though it might not always be pretty. Weeeeeell,after these past few weeks, i think she might've been right after all. The whole thing has been one frustrating roller coaster ride. It's so ironic how these things happen,and how everything 4 YEARS AGO has been connected with the present. Parang yung movie na "jologs",haha. Upon finding everything out, at first i was shocked....then hurt....then angry...then annoyed...then sad....then extremely annoyed...then guilty...then depressed...then shocked again...and THEN i died. For a couple of hours anyway. Grabe, it felt like i was malfuntioning, i couldnt think,speak or feel. System shutdown. I felt numb and lifeless, like i wasnt alive,i simply....existed. But thanks to my bestfriend,my twin and him upstairs, i was ok.
I've felt every possible emotion there is to feel in the last 4 days. I dont know how i lived with myself, especially since my sister was in laguna the whole time it happend and i had noone to talk with at home. But both unfortunately and fortunately, meynard, our director, knew that something was up with the class and was causing its disunity. so last monday we had an open forum. Everyone cleared things up with each other na, and i not only felt really good about mine and peachy's situatuion,but the situations of the others as well. I saw my friends talking to the people whom they had issues with and worked things out, and it just gave me back all the things i believed in that had been lost for the past few days. Although all this talking also led me to find out a couple of, well....discoveries that were not so very nice, i decided to let it pass. Nothing will happen to me if i bring it up anyway. What's done is done. I'm just gonna pretend that i didnt know and from now on, i'm living my life simply.No more "stalking" (or atleast what me and jas call stalking). i've been in enough intrigue this summer to last me a lifetime,tama na!

Looking back, i'm kinda glad that it all happened. It taught me lots of things, and it binded me and my twin closer to one another. hehe, darn those kabag moments,peach!!! but now,we can laugh all we want again. No more "oh no" days for us. The next time we cry, it'll be at the end of the play, singing "for now". This summer's taught me a whooooole lot.

"Everything in life......is only for now." -Avenue Q

Watch the class of T-3 summer 2005 do "Avenue Q"
WHEN: May 28,2005- saturday, 8pm
WHERE: Onstage, greenbelt. (greenbelt 1)
tickets are P200 each.

Please do come watch. :) I'll be doing kate monster!(one of them anyway,hehe)

tricia grew up at 12:58 PM