Sunday, February 13, 2005
i am
SUCH an
idiot.words cannot describe how much i wanna just spontaneously combust right now.
lsgh fair yesterday. One of the worst days ever.Not coz of the fair, but what happened in it. I am such an idiot and the biggest plague that ever lived. It'd be better if i just rotted at home. I dont wanna face anyone anymore, not any of my friends, not anyone at all. Someone just shoot me. Gaaaah, i feel like total crap. When we got there palang, everything was ba na. I was so upset i that i made a slight scene in the far depths of the parking lot, although the only other person who saw it was the guard. He probably thought i was the most dramatic person ever. I probably was. My being upset had nothing to do with the fact that we didn't have tickets, although we didnt. We still were able to get in though, but being there made it worse, i probably should've never wanted to go in the first place. Maybe my curse for not being able to go to fairs had a purpose after all. I ruined everything. I'm such a horrible person. Being upset just makes you totally lose your head that you cant think straight anymore, and lose all sanity. I hate myself more than ever right now. There are just so many "if-onlies" going through my head. We all could've enjoyed it better, if only. if only i didn't exist. If only i knew what i was thinking. if only i wasn't so short tempered and uber sensitive. If only this were all a dream.
I hate myself with a
passion right now.
tricia grew up
at 1:02 AM
