Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Hey! WOW. i haven't blogged in like,forever. I just feel like i have so much to say but when i go here and try to say it, i have no idea how to start it and get too tamad. Hehe. oh well, summer is here and i'll have more free time and just enough boredom to be able to actually gather my thoughts and write. Sooo... what was the last thing i said? oh yeah...my "being pissed". Sheesh, when am i not lately. But anyways, i dont think i've made kwento bowt the formal dinner... so lets start there?This is gonna be a really long entry by the way,to sum up all the things i've been thinking about for the past weeks. So brace yourselves! here goes...


Goodbye Glee Club

So the formal dinner was on feb 22 and 24... our performance on the 22nd went much better. Everything went by smoothly and we even got a standing ovation from Mrs. Soliven! she was sitting there with her mouth kinda open with that familiar big smile on her face,hehe. But after the show, complications arose among the teachers and our glee club teacher got soooo fed up that she decided to resign. Sigh... yeah, she's been thinking about that ever since the sing-out pa, but she was supposed to finish the year first, sorta graduate with us. But that night, she felt she just had too much already, and she only told some of the glee club people about it. Well,let's just say the teachers and the coordiantors were already getting suspicious. But they keep thinking that mrs. ciriaco was trying to manipulate us into not performing as a sort of protest to her. Helooooo! we aren't that shallow, and neither is she! She'd never ask us to do that, and we wouldn't do that anyway. We're not THAT immature. Such prejudices. Anyways, one of the coordinators went and talked to me about it, trying to get some juice out. Well, thats where these rep skills come in handy!hehehehe... i wouldn't lie to someone like her unless i knew what or who i was fighting for was right. Grabe naman kasi sa ob eh, everything's so political! It reminds me so much of noli and fili... tsk,tsk,tsk. Anyways... so when the next performane on the 24th came, we tried to do our best still, but there were so many technical problems! Like the sound system screwing up in the middle of the song, the mics not working or one was too loud, the mic wires getting all tangled up, the props falling,and the audience not even paying attention anymore. It was horrific. But hey, we did our part na, those things weren't our fault anymore. Good thing my mom didnt come and watch anymore... (o.0)

So that ended the glee club's very last performance. Ever since first year, it's kind of been my getaway from all the hassles of the classroom, all the hw's and projects,i'd just forget them all for at least an hour coz i'd be with a bunch of great people and doing what i love. It's sort of like my rep within the school year.I've sacrificed a whole lot in my 4 years of being in the club.It aint that easy, dealing with the everyday practices after school(we're the only club that has practices everyday), being yelled at during almost every practice, endlessly waiting for practices to start, having objects fly at you, trying my best not to answer back or walk out, watching some of the ex-members answer back or walk out, seeing the other members quit one by one, the recordings for the sing-out wherein we went home at midnight na, all the sweat, tears, and money spent on everything and more. And all this time we've never really had any support from the coordinators or the "big bosses". No club of ob has. Despite me being really pissed at her sometimes, i've learned a lot as well from mrs. ciriaco and she's practically been a mother to us. All my efforts of staying in the glee club have paid off rin naman, i've had my dreams come true several times because of it, and faced such challenges like trying to control and make 40 people shut up and listen. We've never reached a number that much before, and it was just overwhelming to try and motivate all of them. Anyways, my point is that after all out hardships, there was never a proper farewell for mrs. ciriaco or even a proper last performance. So to say, its like the glee club just little by little disseminated. As in biglang wala na, poof! and the other members told me that next year, they're all joining the dance club coz it just wont be the same without us and ma'am. So, wala na talaga, wala nang glee club.


Ateneo!

Sigh. Well moving on... Last March 5, a few saturdays ago, we had this open house thing at ateneo for the school of humanities. It's sort of like an orientation wherein you get to meet your soon to be professors and blockmates, find out more about your course and tour the campus. I was sitting there waiting with my mom, when all of a sudden i see thomas! haha... he's a friend of ian's, met him during a birthday party of one of their friends at valle verde 1. The first time i ever became "one of the boys", as i was the only girl and they were about, 7 or 8 guys. Haha! but it was fun! they were all drinking and stuff, and i was the only sober one. But it was such a funny sight! and they were all so nice and friendly, i actually learned quite a lot from them. hehe, this was the first time i ever felt like i wanted to be a guy, seeing how different they were from the guys at my school. wala lang,had such fun with them. Anyways, i also saw thomas at my interview at UAP, and now i bumped into him again. his parents didn't come, so i told him he could share my mom. Haha! and daldal naming pareho, we barely listened to the guy talking, Which is pretty funny since we've only talked 2 other times before that. Hmm, halfway through the orientation my mom decided to go back home and sleep, so we just continued the tour. We went inside the gallery of modern art(the only one of its kind in the Philippines!) where they had an ORIGINAL Dali, Rembrandt and Picasso. It would've been much better if i wasn't so sleepy though. I kinda felt like i was sleepwalking at the time....Zzzzzz


Grad Ball

Anyways, the night of that same day was the grad ball of la salle. I'd like to thank jay for inviting me! the place was reaaaaaally nice, the whole walk up to the entrance of the gym was covered in rose petals. REaaaally purrty. I saw mia there,(of course) and ysa, anna acha, ian and his friends, kamaira, and cyrene,hehe... i also saw one of my classmates from st. paul pa, but i dunno if she remembered me...she was sitting at the table behind us and i wanted to say hi or something, but people from there dont seem to remember me much! well, cant really blame her, we were grade 3 then,hehe. Well anyways, hi monica! (cant remember her last name). Afterwards we went to Dencio's in metrowalk, where i became one of the boys again.Well, there was one other girl but she ended up leaving me! ahahaha... it was ok though, its fun to just sit and listen or watch guys being guys...just not all the time! haha... as for our own grad ball, well, there wont be one anymore. =( I guess they decided to scrap it since noone was really being cooperative. eh kasi, we're all broke and out of money!! kakatapos lang ng prom nun,hehe. Well, i wouldn't have been able to go din since i'd be in the beach the day they set it up for. Woohoooo!!! i'm so excited...and i just cant hide it....


Cry me a river...?

Exams just ended last week, so we're having our week of "un-school". We just go to school to attend grad practice or to finish requirements and stuff, the last few days with my batchmates. For the graduation naman, i AM the last to graduate!! haha, coz i'm the last girl of the last section. So for the entrance, everyone has to enter by partner. My class has an odd number of students, and since im the last,ako lang walang partner. Yeeeeees naman, star!! bwahaha... and i get to have the introduction of "and last but not the least...." said before my name is called, so then i get the biggest applause. Bwahahahaha! *pa-star*. We just had our baccalaureate mass yesterday, and i feel like i've got a heart of stone. My bestbud was already tearing next to me, and i dont know why, but i couldn't cry! kami ni kaye... i understand it on kaye's part since she isn't exactly iyakin, but i am! and i couldn't cry! i NEED TO CRY, it's the only way i get to release everything. Well, last night, after seeing something and realizing something, i did cry.... but it wasn't because of graduation. Darn it, i thought after a while it would finally hit me and HARD, but it's not. i mean, i'm gonna miss my friends and my class a looooooooot, and i know things will never be the same again. I know how different college is gonna be like and all the changes that are gonna happen, but it just wont sink in!I feel like a block of wood when it comes to grad. What is wrong with me?!?!?!


Mystery Solved!

I finally know what J.T. Drugstore is! Joseph Tarzan*... (*name is changed to protect those involved.) and no, it's not a drugstore. I mean, i thought it was, and all this time i thought it was just some THing i didnt know about, but i actually do!! All this time spent trying to find out WHAT it was, and i already knew it pala to begin with. As in, i have their number on my phone, THAT kind of know. hahahaha....it's ironic how small the world is... (only my classmates' humor will get what i'm talking about). And how do i feel? haaaay...relieved, and incredibly amazed. As in i love telling the whole story about it. Some people say that they'd be really pissed if they were me, but i'm not! ang astig nga eh! ever since i was 14, nandun na pala sila..... ahahaha.=)


Thoughts that creep into my head without warning

I feel really sad about the love lives of the people i know... it's like, no matter how hard you try, or how much you really like the person, i dunno...things just dont work out the way we hope they would. But thats life,isn't it? I understand it if it were just me, coz it never seems to work out for me anyway, no matter how nice things seem to be. Love's just not on my side. But for others whom i think really deserve it, i just wish i could slap the guys's heads and say, "You stupid oaf! what are you waiting around for? cant you see what's right in front of you??" Buuuuut sadly, i cant. Hay nako, if only i were like hitch! hehehe...

I realized i've only reeaaaaaaaallly super ka-duper liked someone twice. They're the only ones i've ever actually CONSIDERED telling how i felt, and since thats something i would never ever have the guts to be able to do, so just the fact that i CONSIDERED telling them is a big thing. believe me. So, did i tell the first one? No... he was practically the "dream guy" of every girl, and i was content enough to be the one he turned to despite the fact that we hardly talked before. I mean, this guy's got terrible memory, so just the fact that he decided to call me for help and remebered i existed is pretty good for me already,haha. i dont think anyone can have that guy anyway. too hard to reach! Now the next guy... he's another kind of mr perfect. the first one was a mr perfect in the jock, popular-guy sort of way, and the other one is the mr perfect in the more sensitive-type of guy way. People gravitate towards him coz he's understanding. But both of them are so hard to reach. Ano ba yan, why are the guys i like always like that?! I've seen a lot of negative things about him already,but i still like him. Am i stupid? I'll say. If i DO do something, this'll go down in history as one of the worst disasters ever, for i am cursed. But i dunno, some part of me wants to just..seize the moment? You'll only be young enough to be excused for the stupid things you do once.hehe.....naks, lakas ng loob ko to put this here, but i know he doesnt read this anyway. Hmm,i guess i know how its gonna be though. I'm gonna end up just being their friends. Everyone i like always sees me as just that. There's a positive side to that, and a negative. but oh well, i've been a "plague" my whole life, just wonder when and IF i'll ever grow out of it.

Wish right now more than ever that i could just be a kid and stay in neverland forever. Oh Captain hooo0o0o0k, i'm over heeeeere!! *waves frantically about*.



c'est fini!



tricia grew up at 9:24 PM

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name: Patricia Isabel Torres
age: 17
occupation: hobbit/student
interests: music, movies, books, reading, writing, singing, musical theatre, art, the sky, the moon and the stars....love animals, love my family and friends, dislike fakers, admire those who dare to be different.






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