Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Hayayay.... Math Midterms are at last over, but that means it's time for everything else to come rushing in. I feel sooooo bad... the midterms were easier than i expected, but my math quizzes aren't so good. Kasi naman, i ALWAYS understand it better after we've been given a quiz or something. Peste naman! Naaasar talaga ako, troubles with my studies affect me the most, coz it used to be my outlet to get away from other problems.. but since this IS the problem, hay ewan ko na. Maybe it's coz i'm always so tired and sleepy in class that i don't absorb anything anymore. I know i have BlueRep to supposedly even out the stress i'm having with all the fun, but if anything, it just adds pressure and can sometimes be a hassle. Like when I finally have free time to go and research or do something for school, bigla nalang may magte-text saying that i have to meet up with them for rehearsals. I can't NOT go rin naman coz i do need it. Being Ti Moune isn't as easy as i would've imagined. It's not enough that you love the character you're playing, but it also requires the
TIME to internalize what she should be feeling in this particular part, etc. And
TIME isn't that easy to come by lately. PLUUUUS, that one prolonging note in "waiting for life" is killing me. Can't seem to do it, and i get so frustrated and disappointed!! Aaaaaarrrgggh! And I get so intimidated byt he people in Blue Rep, nahihiya na rin akong ilabas...which sucks coz I know I can do better than what I've been doing. I'm so dissapointed with a lot of things. Sorry for all this ranting, i just need to let it out. <:-(
tricia grew up
at 11:27 PM
